A Letter To My 12-Year-Old Self
I know things are hard for you right now, you are trying to find your way in the world, where you fit in and how to think for yourself but I promise you things get easier.
When I look back, I see you as one person but I know there were two of you: one that the world saw and the private one that only you knew. I remember the nights and days filled with worry, sadness, and confusion. I remember being both of you. I remember the smile I would show to my friends and then I remember the tears no one knew that I cried behind my closed bedroom door. Those tearful nights in your bedroom will bring out your creative self. I wish I knew that everything would be okay someday.
Don’t be afraid to be yourself, your real self. What others think of you is irrelevant, as long as you are kind and caring towards them. It’s okay to be different and a little weird.
Your so called "Friends" will bully you, a lot. They will call you names & say hurtful things. They will tel that "oh my god you look so ugly" or "you're useless" or just different things about your physical appearance. They will tell you that your face look like a monkey and that single sentence will make you cry whenever you remember that incident from your life. You thought that you could trust these people but they turn on you for some reason.. Even few of your relatives will make fun about the way you walk or the way you dress up or the way you speak. They will always make you feel underrated, but after few years you'll get used to it. You'll feel like no one else know what you're going through.
You are amazing and wonderful the way you are. The things you don't like about yourself now will be what other people love about you later. I promise you are not nearly as ugly as you believe yourself to be.
Those painful lonely nights and tears cried are the times that make you stronger, smarter and sculpt you to become the rock-solid person that you will become. Through the tears, you discover your backbone. That bone becomes your core, your solid foundation that will carry you through all the losses, sadness, and even the joy of the years to come. I’m telling you, it’s gonna be worth the wait.
I know this is a random post, and this is very scary for me to put out there. But it had to be said. If this post can help lift up even one person's spirits, I do not regret putting myself out there. You are beautiful and you are strong. There is only one YOU, and that is a powerful thing. There will be a day when you wake up and feel proud to be in your own skin. Until then, I'm here for you and sending you lots of positivity. I leave you with this quote that really spoke to me while I was going through a tough time of self acceptance. I learned that I became stronger than I ever thought I could be. I learned how to stand up for what I believe in. There comes a day when you realize turning the page is the best feeling in the world, because you realize there is so much more to the book than the page you were stuck on. Life's a funny thing, the minute you think you've got everything figured, something comes along and turns it all upside down.